Exploring Gems: One Step at a Time

I entered the room psychologically ready for my elementary students. Not knowing, I was up for something out of my world!

Uhmmm, I have not taught school kids for almost 4 years now. I have not had any experience at all teaching elementary pupils and I am up for a surprise! Lol!

I was ready mentally, physically and emotionally, up until 8:30 that day.

By 1:30 pm, negative thoughts were already running out of my mind...

* I can't do this.
* I should go back to my administrative support job.
* If and when I should just go back teaching college students, high school or even middle school students!
* I should just quit and declare my defeat!
* OMG! What am I doing here!

All expectations, hopes and vision seemed to have gone down the drain. 

I was overwhelmed by the simplicity of what I am going to teach! Weird huh?! I was overwhelmed by the work load! I was overwhelmed by how I can make it work for them and for me! 

I was simply frustrated because I was expecting more... but shouldn't and I honestly wasn't really sure if I was effective as I should be.

It was my first day.. and I was punishing myself for not having done well, using my own standards. Yes, using my own standards.

Thanks to all the support from new co-teachers, friends and family, by 6:00 pm, I have taken the challenge to continue on this journey! But, yes, still considering another offer of an administrative job by 11:00 pm. Lol!

I breathed in and out!
I brainstormed... and got myself ready for my 2nd day....

.... believing something really good will come out of this!

Cheers!